Sad

I've taught myself to cry silently. I learned the art of blowing my nose without making a sound. For years, I've mastered holding back my tears so I could expel them at a later time in privacy. I've been doing all this for so long, that even when in a situation where it's acceptable to bawl my eyes out uncontrollably, and wail at the top of my lungs, I simply can not do it. My body won't let me. I trained it that well. Now, no one will ever hear my cries for help, even if I wanted them to.