A Real Person's Face

I'm still waiting for my happy pills to come in the mail. It seems they've already had a placebo effect on me because yesterday and the day before I was exuberantly happy!

I felt like my old self. The BF and I had a water fight. I bought some water guns and left one outside the front door for him with a note that said "arm yourself' and when he walked in I started shooting him! Our clothes were all wet and we took them off and had great sex!!!

What a wonderful day that was.

I'm not sure what today will bring. I'm optimistic that I'll make a new friend or two. I met a girl named Maha at a karaoke bar and she seemed really nice and she added me on facebook. I sent her a message and I hope she sends me one back.

Plus, I signed up for pottery classes. They start in July. I'm really excited. The class is small, only nine people, but I hope my classmates are cool people.

My boyfriend's band-mate, Margie, is someone I hope to be friends with. She's really cool and I like her and I sent her a message on facebook, but I don't know what's going to become of it. She's a bit of a social butterfly. I think she only talks to me because I'm The BF's shadow.

I can tell the difference when somebody is talking to me because they are interested in what I have to say, or because they're just so comfortable with themselves and their interpersonal skills, they think they can pass off small chat as something greater. Damn you!

I sent her a message about something that's deeper than small chat. She responded, but we haven't had a convo in real life... I'm hoping to get away from the fucking facebook and more towards a real person's face. That's my goal. I can do this.